5 April 2015

Easter Weekend & a little bit of life lately...

Hello everyone! I hope I'm finding you all full of chocolatey goodness this Easter Sunday?
This is going to be quite a rambly post, so bear with me. Over the past month or so I've been really bad at blogging. I haven't been reading as much as I'd like to but I'm always a bit stuck for what else to talk about so it's taken kind of a back seat. There have been a few things going on in my life that I've felt like getting off my chest, but I've been reluctant to put them here. I'll get on to that by the end of the post if you're still with me! But first things first, let me tell you what I've been up to this Easter weekend.

If there's one thing I'm loving since switching jobs, it's that I actually get to enjoy bank holidays! Usually I'd be sitting here on a Sunday evening writing a post, painfully aware of the time getting ever closer to Monday morning. As it is now I'm looking forward to another day off tomorrow instead of an early start and I couldn't be happier about it. This means I can read until whatever time I want tonight! I've had a lovely weekend too, starting with a meal out with my Dad and his wife at a great pub called The Roebuck just outside Otley. It's really lovely inside and I can't believe I didn't take a picture to show you, but there are some on the website here. The food is really good too! On Saturday, Paul and I went for a walk to town for a look around the shops, and then I spent today with my Mum, brother and sisters visiting Grandma as we do every Sunday. Afterwards, we had a drive around the countryside and parked up for a walk at Yeadon Tarn. Sunday is always a family day for me and I hope it continues to be for a long time, I love spending time with them.

Generally speaking, I'm really glad to see the back of March. It felt like it really dragged compared to January and February and it hasn't been a great month for me. At the moment I'm feeling really frustrated as it seems like a lot of things aren't in my control any more. Earlier this month I was told that my temporary contract at work would be coming to an end, and I'd have to interview to keep the job permanently. I knew this would happen at some stage and I've been looking for something else since starting, but I've had a lot of rejection, which I'll come back to in a second. Long story short, I've applied and got the job, but instead of feeling happy and settled I feel like I'm stuck with this job that was fine for temporary, but not something I really want to do in the long run, and will now be harder to get out of. I don't mean to sound ungrateful - I know I'm very lucky to have a permanent job lined up even if it's not one I'm crazy about. I suppose I thought I'd have more time to find something I really wanted to do and then it was taken out of my control, the contract ended, and I've had to apply to keep the job out of necessity instead of choice.

I've experienced a lot of rejection this month and in January and February, which I expected to a certain extent in the graduate job market, but it's left me feeling very disheartened. I've come to realise that some interviews didn't work out for a reason, but others I'm really disappointed about. I interviewed for a great job this week that I didn't get solely because I can't drive - the feedback from the interview was really positive, but I wasn't told beforehand that the role required some occasional travel and they needed a car driver. It was the only negative thing about my application and it's so frustrating because I'm feeling more and more like I wasted my time at university, working really hard to get my degree, only to have something else between me and my dream job. I'm kicking myself for not learning to drive sooner, but then it never really occurred to me it might be the only thing stopping me from being offered a job in the future. I went to university to supposedly overcome the biggest obstacle to a career and held down a part time job during, but I'm still finding that there are things in my way. Has anyone else experienced this? I think in general I'm just really not satisfied with the direction my life is going in at the moment. I'm hoping this all means something much better is around the corner. In the meantime, the next thing on my to do list is to apply for a provisional license!

If you've stuck with me til the end of this post, thank you so much for taking the time to read. I promise normal bookworm service will resume as soon as possible!
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